the sun didnt come out,again..

Why wOuld yOu deny yOurself the oppOrtunity tO lOve someOne? LOve is the mOst beautiful, fascinating, breathtaking, mind-blOwing, nerve-wracking, nail-biting, wOnderful experiences that life has tO Offer. DOn’t pass it up just because you’re scared.. :')

s0metimes, life is just s0 unpredictable, like l00k at me n0w, i cnt even decide what t0 use f0r my o's, i wanna it t0 l00k this way ->0

0r this way ->O hmm.. hahahahs..

aniwei, its been gazzili0n years since i bl0g, s0metimes i just d0nt feel like it, ya kn0w.. bt i d0 what i wanna d0, like what i always tell my friends, cars st0p f0r me nt i st0p f0r em.. hehehe xD

and aniwei, when i wanna d0 what i wanna d0, it inv0lve risk.. like what if i died..? 0r pe0ple dies..? bt then S0me things are w0rth the risk, n0, ALL things are w0rth the risk. Y0u have t0 d0 the crazy shit every0ne tells y0u n0t t0 d0, y0u have t0 make bad decisi0ns, run out of m0ney, live 0n a c0uch, get y0ur heart smashed, fall in l0ve with the wr0ng pers0n, n0t sleep f0r days, break s0me b0nes, get s0me scars, dr0p 0ut of sch00l when y0u’re 20, g0 back when y0u’re 24, get y0ur masters when y0u’re 60, start a company, l0se that company, quit y0ur j0b, hit r0ck b0tt0m, start all 0ver..

It d0esn’t matter. N0thing matters but y0u. What makes YOU happy. Freaking d0 it. Take a chance and d0n’t ever look back, d0n’t ever look back . just bec0use, i d0nt wanna live my life later 0n with this lingering th0ught, what if..? i d0nt wanna regret later 0n that i let g0 0f a certain 0pp0rtunity, just bec0use im scared t0 make that leap.. ya kn0w, later, with greying hairs, at the park, watching kids running ar0und in bliss and j0y, wishing s0 hard, s0 damn hard t0 be able t0 turn back time.. and have this 'what if 20 years ag0, i've this c0urage t0 l0ve and t0 be l0ved, my life w0nt be this miserable then..' but then its t00 late, its t00 darn late.. its just hyp0thetical speech,u guys..

bt n0w,right n0w, i've this lingering in my head 'what if , me , myself cant accept that certain part 0f me.. the best part 0f me, in my 0pini0n.. G0d's gift.. bt actually, He, Himself resent it if i embrace it.. its n0t a gift i think, its a test, i think.. bec0use i, myself d0nt understand why .. he gave it t0 me..? is it wr0ng if i say it like that..? is it t00 far..? i d0nt kn0w.. im s0 c0nfused.. i think i need help.. hmm..